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WhenIwasalittlegirl,mymothertoldmethttreenbeforeIcrossedthestreetandtocrossalwaysattheer.ThisIdid.Indeed,IositiveasaveryyoungchildthatIwouldgetmashedlikeapotatoifIeversomuchassteppedafootoffthesidewalkwhilethelightwasred.Ifollowedmymother'sadvitilIrealizedthatsheherselfjaywalkedtly,dodginginandnotofmovingtraffidpullihher.SoafterawhileIfollowedherexampleandnotheradvice.
MyfathertoldmeocheatorstealandIremembermyiiontheday,only6yearsold,Ireceivedapubligfthreedimesfromtheheretheyhadbeebyavisitimyfatherpushedmeuiletogetintothesubwayahemoviesforhalffare,wayafterIwasoldenoughtopayfullpridmymotheruallybroughthomereamsofstatiohersuppliesliftedfromtheofficeswheresheworked.
BothmypareedseverepufaIkime,thattheyliedtomeaherandtootherswhen,presumably,theyfelttheowarra.
Andthisartofthestory.Buthypocrisyaboutsex,aboutracerelations,abion,tookmealoosee.Iwasoutofhighschoolbeforethatpicturebegantopulltogether.Uandingdidn'tdevastatemebecauseIhadbeguntoabsorbtheklebylittle,throughtheyears.BythetimeIwas18uessIwasbotholdenoughtouandandstroofacee,myfriendsandI,didetotakeitfraswerethatway.Olderpeoplewerethathatwefoundoutaboutourparents'geionodmostofusaccepteditaspartoflife—asthewaythingswere.
NowIamgrownupandIhaveyown.Igowithmysonstotheparkwhere,illegally,weletofftheleashahelookoutforapoliightcatdgiveusaticket.FesttimeIusedtopullmylittledaughteraiddleofthestreet—justlikemymotherusedther,“Don'tdothiswhenI'mnotwithyou.”
&heclerkatasupermarketmakesamistakeinmyfavorIsometimesacceptitquietly,rationalizingthatthismakesupforoimesI'msureheedme.ThiskiingwithprinetodowhatIwantinsteadofwhatIshoulddo.Becauseitisdifficulttolivebyone'shighprineisanotherreasonforhypocrisy.Shamethatwearehan>
&ersaysthathypocrisyisthefalseassumptionofvirtue,asimulationofgo,inotherwords,tobebetterthahisbecauseantier?Oronlythatwewanttofoolpeopleintothinkingthatepracticeareligionthatpreaforourfellowmen,dowedeliberatelymarchoutofdrefusetorentaoablackfamily,knowingohisishypocritical?Ordoweallliveourlivesontwotracksbecausewehave,sthelihesubliminalthatsuchsiaisessentialtooursurvivalinthistryatthistime?
当我还是小女孩时,母亲就告诉我,过马路只能在拐角处,并且要等交通信号灯变绿。
我照做了,事实上,我很肯定,如果在红灯时往人行道外跨出一步,就会像土豆一样被碾成泥。
我照着母亲的话去做。
后来,我发现她自己经常乱穿马路,拉着我的手在车流中躲闪避让。
所以,不久后,我也学着她的样子,不听她的劝告了。
父亲告诉我不要撒谎或偷窃。
记得六岁时,有一天,我偷了一个来访叔叔放在窗台上的三毛钱,被当众打屁股,受到奇耻大辱。
可是,我到了该买地铁全票的年龄时,父亲会让我躲避,看电影也只买半票。
母亲也经常把她办公室的很多文具和其他物品拿回家。
父母对我的撒谎行为会处以严厉的惩罚。
但我知道,在他们认为有理由的时候,就会相互欺骗,或对我和别人撒谎。
当然,这只是其中一部分,我花了很长一段时间,才弄清楚他们在性、种族关系、宗教方面的伪善。
高中毕业以后才完全了解,但这些细致的了解并没有影响到我,这些年来,我对此已经相当有研究。
十八九岁时,我觉得自己已经长大,能够理解和面对所看到的一切。
我和朋友们,都对这一切熟视无睹了。
父母和祖父母们都是那样。
对于父辈们,我们只能用“伪善”
这个词来形容。
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